|Divorce is not the only indicator of a failed marriage,|
it is merely the final stage.
|There is something bold about sincerity. |
It is attractive,
because it is unique.
He is sincere when he tells me,
"I hope you can become happy without me."
It is a mutual understanding
that we cannot continue how we have always been.
We are restless in the night,
fighting to sleep
Soon there will be no more nights like this.
|"I don't understand why anything happens and I'm confused and scared and trying really hard all the time."|
I wake up unable to face the world.
My dreams are so realistic,
in my dream,
I have photographic memory.
My life is most real in the times it's actually not.
The world in here
is much warmer,
and here, the problems are all so easy to solve.
But it is also much more lonely.
I see people I will never meet,
and I feel things I never thought possible.
Is it possible that I am my best self
when I am not around anyone else?
I've forgotten what this feels like.
Why, my dear 8-year-old self,
did you want to grow up so quickly?
You had it much better than I ever will.
|"I hope when you get this, there will have been a plethora of achievements under your belt. First I hope you graduated happy. Excited. I hope you have found the perfect career path for the next decade. Second, I hope that regardless of whether your short-term goals change or not, your long-term goals stay consistent. You want to do good in this world, so keep at it. Do what you've always meant to. Third, I hope you are still beautiful, not only on the outside, but remain so on the inside. Remember what is important."|
It's a good reminder that it's OK for to treat ourselves well too.
I've grown a lot these past few years.